I’ve been off of work for almost 9 months now and I’m bored. I’m bored of lie-ins, bored of what little mind-numbing daytime TV I watch and bored of the most exciting part of my week being when I get to go to Tesco and do the big shop. When I first approached my then GP about my worsening mental health back in September I can remember being horrified at her suggestion that I take a fortnight off of work and so we compromised on a week. You see, the thing is I always actually rather liked my job despite my somewhat fragile mind trying to convince me otherwise, and I didn’t want to get to a stage where I was too comfortable being at home all day that going back became an impossible ask.
Thankfully, and in no small part thanks to the support of my partner and a couple of good friends, I’m now in a position where I have a date set for me to return to work and hopefully to a more normal way of life. It’ll certainly be nice to start interacting with other people again. Whether it’s the team that I lead or the company directors and executives that I get to speak with on the phone every day. It’ll be good to actually have a purpose and a focus in life again rather than spending too much time living in the world of social media.
That’s the thing though when you have to spend literally 8 or 9 hours a day just in your own company. You start to get lonely, and that’s when the likes of Twitter become your go place for a bit of much needed interaction. This is especially true if the particular mental illness that you happen to suffer with makes you not want to leave the house as you just can’t handle other people and their annoying habits.
The problem is though that when you start to rely too much on Twitter as part of your daily life it almost begins to feel like the world that exists on there is becoming more important than the real world around you. If in my case for example you follow a lot of accounts relating to mental health you tend to find yourself wallowing too much in the content they’re putting out. Which in turn doesn’t help with your recovery., because you’re concentrating too much on the condition you’re suffering with and not enough on actually making a recovery, if that makes sense.
Now I’m not saying that Twitter isn’t a useful tool when it comes to recovery from a mental illness. It’s certainly an important part of my support network and I have made some good friends through spending time on there. It’s also introduced me to the world of meditation, the wonderful books by Matt Haig and Jayne Hardy and helped me get into blogging as a serious past time.
It’s not the be all and end all of life though. There’s a whole beautiful world out there that’s just waiting to be discovered if you’re willing to and brave enough to step away from the world of likes, retweets and 280 character limited personalities for a few moments.